I feel so SMALL.

They say I'm smart.
They say I'm cool.
They say I'm very ambitious.
They say I'm good in writing.
They say I would get success at the rest of my life.

I thought it so.

Until.. I realized, I didn't make anything.

It hurts me a lot knowing it.

Now I'm 24.

I always think that I'm still young. I have much much time to do something.
I always think that people do something BIG over 30, so.. At least I still have 6 years to go.

Then..
I realized..
Many women gaining success at my age.

This morning, I read newspaper and found article about owner of pastry shop and she still works for company that handles poor society. She wakes up early everyday to bake cakes, then goes to office.

She makes all things herself. She created the company profile, website, and logo for her cafe. She earns her living and do much for society.
She is at my age.

After reading, I feel so SMALL.

Okay, I'm a journalist of a published media grup in Indonesia. I work for Media Indonesia. I handle Kick Andy Magazine, several corporate magazines, and Media Ind Mag for Ipad.
I've been in love with writing since I was a child.

I did work hard to be a journalist. I used to be a beauty editor in Eve Indonesia Magazine.
I used to write FTV scenario.

And now, I always meet great people while interviewing them for the articles.

So, when people say I'm consistent enough and very passionate, yeah they're truly right.

My mom loves baking cake. She makes the most delicious cakes ever. I'm sure about that.

For these 3 years, I promote her business. But, I'm not enough consistent. I haven't learned making cakes from her yet.

I have dreams to have my own cake business someday, but I don't know whether I could be a seller for my business or not.

I don't have a lot of MONEY to start it. And I need it to start. Yea, that's always be my reason.

So.. Here I am. Stuck with all things growing up besides me.

I have talents, I know.

But, I feel there's always limit and a strong wall inside me.

I don't know what I need.
IDEA?
MONEY?
SUPPORTS?
PASSION?
TIME?
LUCKS?

I'm still thinking about it. I hope time wouldn't run fast, and I'm still 24 until the next three years.

Regards,
Woman in orange-stripes-tshirt-and-black-cardigan drinking Caramel Frapucinno.

fy.

Abstract is the new pattern

Noord Nederlandse Dans is a dance community from Deutch, it has been handled by Stephen Ahropshire since 2009. Last Saturday, 11 June 2011, My Friend, Anwari Natari (I call him Bang Away) and I watched them dancing at Erasmus Huis Jakarta.

It was really tempting to see their abstract movement on the stage under the spotlight. They connected each other, making patterns with their hands altogether, but it seemed the hands are from one's. The dancing really fits with its songs, so the audiences could feel the unity of music, movement, sound, and lighting.

They were about four women and six guys in Noord Nederlandse Dans club. They wore casual clothes with natural makeup. Sometimes they danced without music, yet their feet rubbing and thumping onto the floor. It really made new beats and rhythm.

The performance divided into four session and each session took around 15 minutes. We were coming late and skipped the first session, but three sessions were enough to make us amazed. At the end of the performance, all audience couldn't stop clap the hands and praise them.

Anyway, thanks to my friend who asked me to watch it. :)

At that time in different hall, there's also Enamel Exhibition, the history of modern advertising in Indonesia. Enjoy the limited photos I took from Google. Hehehe..










Xoxo,
fy

You'll have Breathtaking Lips

Whoa, I almost forgot about it.
This is my beauty photoshoot on eve magazine May 2011 edition. One month after that, I resigned from eve to challenge myself more and more as a true journalist&writer.

Theme: Breathtaking Lips
Stylist: Faye Yolody
Photographer: Niki Yusuf S
Model: Tara Basro
Make up artist: Vima @Make up for ever & Yarri @Shiseido

Enjoy watching :)






xoxo,
fy